In life, people tend to wait for good things to come to them, and by waiting, they miss out. Usually what you wish for doesn’t fall in your lap, it falls somewhere nearby and you have to recognize it, stand up, and put the time and work it takes to get it. This isn’t because the universe is cruel, it’s because the universe is smart. It has its own cat-string theory and knows we don’t appreciate things that fall into our lap.
Wait for the guy that pursues you. The one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical. The kind of guy that brings out the best of you and makes you wanna be a better person. Wait for a guy that will be your best friend. Who will drop everything to be with you at any time. No matter what the circumstances. Wait for the guy who makes you smile like no one else. And when he smiles you know he needs you. Wait for the guy that wants to show you off to the world when you’re in sweats and have no make up on, but loves it when you get all dolled up for him. And most of all, wait for the guy that will put you in the center of his universe because that’s where you belong.
I looked back on us today, and I honestly don’t know why I missed you, and why I wanted you back. Sure, at the beginning we were kids rushing into things we had no idea what about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, I trusted you less, and the more I loved you, the less I loved myself. But now I’m free, and I’m not sorry. I had to get out. I knew it was over long before you said it. And I thought you broke my heart, but you merely made it stronger, made it resilient. Of course I’ll never forget you, but there’s no way I’m ever going back. So goodbye, my first love. Thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.
